Blessing in disguise

You'll know your real life is starting when things are about to change. 

I've been longing for a child for quite some time now and with Allah's blessing, me and F are en route to having our own insyaallah. How far along am I? As of today, I am at 18 and a half weeks. Well of course, F and I are pretty stoked about our soon to be first born. Lucky for me, I did not experience the usual symptoms of a preggo women, instead, I was doomed into eating whatever I felt like. And whatever I thought about, I would surely get it down my throat. As I had a difficulty in burping since young, I had a gas problem at first, but alhamdullilah, I have learned to overcome that feeling.

With the influence from my mum and my sister whose had 4 children of her own now, I began to realize how important my health and my being is not just for me, but for another life living inside me. I remembered the first time I found out I was expecting.

It was during Ramadhan, towards the last week. In that month, I was redeeming myself with faith throughout the month. My mind was in solitude and my heart was nothing but filled with faithful thoughts of my religion. I recited the Quran several times a day and worked extra hard to fulfill my inner belief. 

After nearly 2 months missing a period, me and F decided it was time we tested. After a few minutes of testing, we were amazed, thrilled and ecstatic. When 2 blue lines appeared, it was like winning. Like finding a golden ticket. Of course, I gleamed as happy tears rolled endlessly down my face. I remembered, the first one I thought of was Allah. He is ready to forgive me of my past mistakes, and he has given me this gift which was definitely the best I can ever have.

3 check ups, 18 weeks, and our baby is growing healthily in me. My diet and taste buds begin to change as my hormones build up. I'd say, as I enter the 2nd trimester, I feel much much more energetic and less tired than the 1st. 

I'm starting to think that my ligament injury that happened in late May was indeed a blessing in disguise. 

Masyallah. Allah is definite and he is great.